Courage and Wisdom| Postgrad Hiatus (Again)| Thoughts of an Ahjumma


Wise, but not at the point where he’s losing courage. And courageous, not at the point where he’s losing wisdom.

Tariq Ramadan


Courage and wisdom. Courage and wisdom.


Ever since I listened to Prof. Ramadan’s talk last December, it seemed the meaning of the two words he emphasized throughout the 3-day convention began to unravel to me.

Especially when it came to the part when it suddenly dawns on you, you’re about to exit college. And I have (graduated), and the struggle seems to have just begun.




College comes to an end. And while others feel the glee of being released from the bonds of the seemingly endless layers of school and other paperwork, for many, the dawning reality of college ending feels more like a slap on the face.

You wake up to the truth- all those facts and numbers you scratched and clawed for would probably do you no good once you’re out there. Unemployment and underemployment is a “norm” condition of fresh graduates in my country (if not with many other places in the wild, wild world).  So as the date for that “out-to-the work-force initiation ceremony” (graduation XD) grows near, the pangs of anxiety due to not knowing the answer to “what should be next? what do i do next?” only worsens rather than the excitement one is supposed to feel.

“What should be next? What do i do next? What can I do?”

This entry is supposed to tackle those questions…but even I don’t know the exact answers yet. At least, there are no words to put what are going through my noisy head right now. (Laughs)

(WRITER’S BLOCK. That’s when I know this writing lass needs to take a step back O.O)

But I do know that it lies on realizing the meaning to have and practice those 2 words- Courage and Wisdom.

To have wisdom is to have courage to struggle for the right and against the wrong. To have courage is to act with wisdom in spite of fear and tribulation and not to act recklessly. To have true Faith is to practice both.

Wisdom as to your principles, courage as to your struggle.


I think I have courage. Maybe we all fresh-graduates feel like that. But wisdom? Boy, that’s a long way to go…!


But then my mother told me something that showed me the key. “Intention. What are you doing it for? What did you do it for? Are you sure you’re not doing it just to feed your ego?”

Intention. The root of all action. The substance of all transactions, as accountants might say.

AKA: Purpose.


I’ve always loved to write. But to be worthy writer, is something am I still starting to grasp.



Graduating, you realize you carry a sword (the course you graduated in). But then you also learn “a sword is nonetheless useless, if one cannot know how and when to yield it.” And in today’s growing competitive world, earning a BS isn’t enough. Learning doesn’t stop- it cannot. Like a game, you have to upgrade in your levels. But I think all college studs (or any student for that matter) will all agree with me, you can’t go on learning (ehem, I prefer that than “studying”) without the fire of passion. A fire that can only be fueled by a clear-cut and solid foundation of purpose.


So, the hiatus. I know that this post doesn’t make much sense. I apologize and I do hope that, GOD willing, some good came out of it anyway. Though, it would not accredit to me. 🙂 Bear with me.

Take care all! 🙂


And so, the hiatus. PEACE.


Crossing Bridges. A short anecdote for this day| Thoughts of An Ahjumma


“By understanding the past you understand the future, unless you change your ways, life will repeat in an endless cycle.”

In the name of GOD, Most Gracious, Most Merciful…

No words can begin to describe what I am feeling today.

Graduation….graduating from college is one of the said most important turning points in one’s life. The crucible, the climax of a stage.

No words can come from me, but by God, that can describe what I’ve learned.

Graduation. Life. Turning Points. Stages.

The moment where I’ll be stepping out of this plane, and crossing the bridge onto the next.

Graduating from college makes me think of that future stage when I’ll be “graduating from life.”

All of the moments, all of the tears, all of the smiles…All of it add up to who and where I am today. And none of them are truly because of me. No, not even the success. I see that now.

Above all, I am always and most grateful unto the One True God.  And certainly, no words can express how grateful I am for the people I’ve encountered in my life, even those I didn’t actually talk to.  Even the shows I’ve seen on TV has taught me certain significant things. *laughs*

And through it all, it’s the tears that seem the more weighty amongst all the experiences.  The struggle, the hurt…all of them, for reasons I’ve came to understand, for reasons I’m just coming to understand and for reasons I have yet to understand, were worth it.


And that’s just talking about going through the “phase” called college.

What more in the whole journey  called “Life”?

What about those who were past this stage? What were you thoughts back then? What are you thoughts now, whenever you look back?



I only pray that I’ll be able to “graduate” from Life, and not flunk it. Ameen.



The Middle Way| Faith and Character| TOA: Reflection Shorts


The way of the One True God, in His True Message, is the way of balance and never of the extreme. His Guidance covers all aspects of life as it covers the entire cosmos for He, in His Absolute Oneness, is the Originator and the Creator of all things. He forbade the extremes such as the extravagance-greed/miserliness, and arrogance-self-depreciation/self-abasement, recklessness-cowardice and complacency-rigidity.

                           -(the gist of this Friday’s Qutbah/sermon… All glory and thanks be to the One True GOD.)

For having True Faith which is rooted in True Belief, for example, means being grateful and humble. Seeing what you have and even what you have not, as gifts/blessings in disguise. As to spending, not wasting your blessings in vain things (extravagance) but also realizing the blessing in sharing. As to character, it is having hope and seeing wisdom in the purpose of the skills we have been given, thus witnessing God’s Absolute Greatness above all through our limits. It is having the understanding what it means to Trust in His Wisdom and Power, and also what it means by being His Creation gifted with a limited free-will: the responsibility to act with and for Truth and Justice. (Blabbered reflection.)


A/N: A new section! Under this section, are “drabbles” of thoughts taken from instances of daily life. They aren’t really write-ups like FROZEN and others under the Thought’s of an Ahjumma (elder lady/auntie) category. I was hesitant to post here with such shortness, but then somehow the idea of making a section named with the word “shorts”  (hahahah) seemed to fit it just right. Again, all praise be to GOD.

As Nature Intends (An excerpt from Jack Saunsea’s Post)

When we look at this question of what should I do with my life, it is important for us first to examine the nature of how we live. Which is a nature we rarely ever truly contemplate.

We don’t think about our heart beating, our lungs breathing, and our blood coursing through our veins – yet that is what we are doing. And this is what I mean by living “in step with the wind.” When we begin to live our lives in the same manner which our nature functions, we see that we really have no control over it. We aren’t forcefully controlling the beat of our heart, yet it continues do its’ thing….

You can read the entire post at
There is so much to take and learn and apply from Mr. Saunsea’s contemplation…hopefully, God willing, I’d be able to write about it. For now, let our own minds to the talking to ourselves. Contemplate upon the contemplation. 🙂